I worked in the corporate world for eleven years. It was all I’d known of my professional life, except for a short spell of freelancing. I was part of a team, I was managed, I was a manager. My working life was shared with people.
Fast-forward to this evening. I’m sat at my desk in my home office, just me and my laptop and a cup of tea. Were it not for the company of Jake Bugg playing in the background, you could hear a pin drop.
I like to work this way. Actually, I LOVE it. I can spend hours happily ‘in the zone’, as my hubby calls it. I do my best work this way. But, it has its pitfalls and there was one biggie holding me back.
This past week I ran my first live webinar, The 4 Secrets of Successful Working Mummies. I’d had this on my plan since last October – four months ago!! – but I kept putting it off. It was new and daunting and well out of my comfort zone so it got shunted down the priority list, week after week. As I mentioned recently, I’ve been working with a business coach and, during my coaching session on the 14th January, I committed to hosting the webinar less than a month later. And guess what? I made it happen. And guess what else? It wasn’t close to being as nerve-wracking as I thought. I actually enjoyed it.
As I treated myself to a bubble bath later that evening, I reflected on how the webinar had gone and asked myself what had stopped me doing it sooner. The simple answer was fear. I was worried about what people would think. I knew my content inside and out. I was confident that I was sharing great value with people BUT I had no-one to reassure me. I realised that I missed the input that I would have had if I’d been part of a team. A senior manager to make suggestions and revisions. Peers to encourage and motivate. And the simple truth is I was putting off facing into these fears because I could.
It’s not the first time in my career I’ve done something that pushed my limits. In fact, it doesn’t compare to some of the fear-inducing situations I’ve faced BUT I couldn’t shy away before. It was my job, my responsibility and I was accountable. Bingo! The light went off: I hadn’t been holding myself accountable.
I looked at the other non-movers on my to-do list and recognised the same pattern. If something was new territory or a little bit scary, I was avoiding it. With no senior bod to report to, I was letting myself avoid things.
Decision time. I realised I had a choice. I could scratch the ‘scary’ things from my plans completely OR I could face them head on and see where they lead me, personally and professionally. If you know me at all, there was no decision to be made… I’m all about overcoming the mental blocks and hurdles to design a life and business that sparkles. So, watch this space. In the words of the song, from now on every day I’m hustlin’
Now it’s your turn. What are you putting off? I’d love for you to share in the comments below what one thing you’ve been avoiding and why… AND what action you can take to make it happen.